Volunteering

[hellofishies]

Type: Video
Sender ID: hellofishies (Arkady)
To: Everyone
Subject: Volunteering Volunteers?
Warnings: N/A

Hello! [ Arkady waves with a big smile ] I'm Arkady and I need help. I'd like to be able to help people more here but I need to know how much I can. Back home I can see the future sometimes when I try. But the people I would try with aren't here.

[ which is very hard for her so really she's just looking to find more people she can help look after. Anything to feel more useful than she currently does. ]

Would anyone be willing to let them look for them? It wouldn't hurt you! [ just her ]

I could also maybe help with other things. Lost memories or broken minds. It's wasn't my specialty but I know hurt. I just... [ she fidgets awkwardly with the sheer skirt she's wearing before saying quietly: ] want to do more than I did back home

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[hellofishies]

You don't have to if you're not comfortable. I'll understand really.

[ She nods and seems a great deal more serious. ]

I know. Trusting anyone is hard, especially someone that might see things you don't want them to. But I've seen what happens when our power is abused. I wouldn't want to be like that. [ again. ]

[withermarked]

[ He decides this might be a good time to switch the replies over to private, for whatever exact reason. ]

I'm not—I'm just not sure if I am yet.

[ But it's not just about comfort. It's about the fact that now that he knows there might be a way to find out, his brain is going to gnaw and worry at it like a dog with a bone. ]

Is that... somethin' you want to talk about?

[ His tone is gentle, even if his reason for asking may well just be wanting to know more about the dangers. ]

[hellofishies]

That's okay, there's no rush. Trust takes time, doesn't it?

[ And it's easily fractured, she knows that too. She pauses for a moment and tries to seem less uncomfortable than she is at that question. ]

It's nothing too bad. Back home there were twelve of us with the same powers that I have. Two of them let it go to their head and they didn't do good things with it. I had to stop one of them.

[withermarked]

[ A nod, because it certainly does. It takes time and it's easy to break. He's regretted trusting people. He's made people regret trusting him. He listens quietly to the rest. ]

That sounds... difficult. I'm sorry.

[ A part of him would like more details about what didn't do good things with it means, but he gets the feeling he shouldn't push it. ]

[hellofishies]

Don't be sorry. It was only right that I take care of it.

[withermarked]

I'll take your word for that. Was there... a reason the twelve of you could do this? If you don't mind my askin' of course. I'm not sure anyone can do it where I'm from.

[ He can't rule it out, there are a lot of things in his world he doesn't begin to understand, but someone could read his mind was never an active concern before living here. ]

[hellofishies]

I don't mind any questions, it seems only fair. [ She pauses and then shakes her head. ]

No. A lot of people tried to figure it out, even the government, but nobody has yet. We were all born on the same day at the same time too.

[withermarked]

Well that certainly sounds like some kind of portent.

[ For good or ill he has no idea. He's not quite sure where else to go with that particular line of questions. ]

So these futures you see... do they always come to pass?

[hellofishies]

I've tried to look a lot, but I've never been able to figure anything out.

[ Which has been eternally frustrating for her. In a lot of ways. But considering how things went, what they did to their world, she thinks it being a 'portent' may have been pretty true. probably a bad one. ]

No, that's why I like being able to see them. If I see them first then they can be changed.

[withermarked]

I can imagine that would be comforting.

[ In some cases, at least. He's not sure it would help in the one he's most worried about.

Not unless there's a way to change the entire way the rifts work. But he supposes that was a goal either way, already. ]

[hellofishies]

It made me feel useful. And I was glad that I could stop a bad outcome for an old friend.

[ And everyone else. ] I like to think it helps to find pieces to a puzzle. What someone does with the pieces, if they find where they fit, that might be more up to them.

[withermarked]

I suppose that makes sense.

[ Are they puzzle pieces or just foregone conclusions he's trying to avoid? He's not sure. So for now he'll ask something else that's bothering him. ]

So if—if you can see into people's minds, too, can you be certain you're not seeing... I don't know, possibilities they're already picturin'?

[ Because the problem is he's worried about a very specific possibility back home, and he's aware that could make him very easy to mess with. Not that someone whose actual intent was to do that would admit to it. ]

[hellofishies]

[ She looks a bit confused for just a moment and then shakes her head. ]

Oh, they're two different skills! I have to do different things to active each one.

[withermarked]

That so? I'll admit it's hard to imagine how either would work, I suppose.

[ But that's certainly an interesting detail to know. He still looks thoughtful. ]

[hellofishies]

I could explain more if you'd like.

[withermarked]

If you wouldn't mind, I'm... more than a little curious about all this.

[ To say the least. ]

[hellofishies]

Reading someone's mind means connecting directly with them, in their head. In their head you sometimes hear the things they're thinking at the surface but you have to actually push to hear the real thoughts. Or to see the broken bits, sometimes those really stand out.

[ She pauses for a beat ] When I look to try to see the future it's looking outside them. It's like swimming through a big darkness to find a specific landmark. I have to think about the person or the place and then sometimes it starts to come in more clear.

[withermarked]

That's interesting.

[ It genuinely is, though it doesn't really fix the angle he's concerned about. That's probably just going to have to be a matter of trust at the end of the day. ]

Do you have to know them well, or... just know who they are?

[hellofishies]

It makes it a little easier when I know them well. Back home I could always feel where my friends were because we knew each other so well. [ For better or worse. But that was becasue they'd known each other since birth. ]

[withermarked]

Suppose that makes sense.

[ He's not sure whether to say all the reasons he asked that, but he might as well ask about one of them. ]

I wonder, have you—have you tried to see for anyone who isn't in this world...?

[hellofishies]

I've tried to reach my friends, but I couldn't. [ She bites down on her lower lip and falls silent for a few seconds. ]

I want to try if I can see something about them but I'm afraid. [ Not that she might not see anything, but that she might see that her absence has caused some sort of bigger problem for her world. ]

[withermarked]

Afraid it won't work or... somethin' else?

[ His tone is gentle, though he wonders if he's prying too much. ]

[hellofishies]

[ She pauses for a few seconds. ] I'm afraid of it working.

[withermarked]

I think I can understand that.

[ After all, it's definitely part of his own concern. ]

[hellofishies]

Really?