[Because he wants her to use her words. It's good for the both of them. And while she won't see it, she may hear that wry, rueful smile that forms, that small hum of resigned acceptance.
Yes, it's as he thought, and she's honestly fair for it. The last time had been.......much, to say the least. And even without depressing feelings, he can get caught up in his own madness of work and discovery, his mind never wanting to be idle for too long.
He could tease her for this, make his own point how much she wants to be with him now even if just through a message, but he knows she's being serious so he'll treat it as such.]
I suppose mere words and promises won't be too much of a reassurance. And we both know how I get, even without extenuating circumstances.
[Hum. It would be easy if he could say what she wants to hear most, but unfortunately reality doesn't work that way.]
I cannot promise there won't be some occasions where I really might have to work more than usual, but I was serious about forming a schedule of sorts. Easier if it's a planned undertaking and there would be more of a warning. And regardless of whatever I'm doing, I don't think you'll have to worry about missing messages for long this time. Things are different now, and...
[A small beat.]
I believe I'll miss you too much.
[Even he feels a bit odd admitting it, and his voice does quiet a little compared to his firmer voice from before, making it sound more like a low murmur. Perhaps it's because they're still riding those waves of revelations and both feeling that need to make up for lost time, but at the very least it is true that he has come to be accustomed to her presence, be it indirectly or not. Whether it's just a simple exchange of messages for the day or actual meetings, what was once a bleak hope has now come to fruition.
While he had felt her absence in some varying degrees in the days, weeks, months, years to that night, ever since then he feels it all the more. He's not "clingy," he fully believes in partners having their own space when needed, and perhaps his own age may play a part in that ability to be fine with some distance and separation. However, that doesn't mean he doesn't feel that longing, a yearning to be with her, too. And when they are together, well, it's just completely over. Miracle they manage to separate at all.
So. Yes. It's odd to admit something like this, but before he didn't think she cared so much about his little random messages. Now that he knows she does, it shifts his perspective around, and makes him more motivated and inclined to reach out to her. As he said, things are different now. Not only does he have more people he can dole out those "burdens" to, but especially between them. He's certain now that when things get too frustrating or tiring he's going to want to seek her out for that respite and solace and have faith she will be there to give it (with the usual scolding and initial resistance, but even that would be welcome).
Hopefully this little admittance may also give her some reassurance that he is thinking of her more and being more mindful and considerate of her—and others.]
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Yes, it's as he thought, and she's honestly fair for it. The last time had been.......much, to say the least. And even without depressing feelings, he can get caught up in his own madness of work and discovery, his mind never wanting to be idle for too long.
He could tease her for this, make his own point how much she wants to be with him now even if just through a message, but he knows she's being serious so he'll treat it as such.]
I suppose mere words and promises won't be too much of a reassurance. And we both know how I get, even without extenuating circumstances.
[Hum. It would be easy if he could say what she wants to hear most, but unfortunately reality doesn't work that way.]
I cannot promise there won't be some occasions where I really might have to work more than usual, but I was serious about forming a schedule of sorts. Easier if it's a planned undertaking and there would be more of a warning. And regardless of whatever I'm doing, I don't think you'll have to worry about missing messages for long this time. Things are different now, and...
[A small beat.]
I believe I'll miss you too much.
[Even he feels a bit odd admitting it, and his voice does quiet a little compared to his firmer voice from before, making it sound more like a low murmur. Perhaps it's because they're still riding those waves of revelations and both feeling that need to make up for lost time, but at the very least it is true that he has come to be accustomed to her presence, be it indirectly or not. Whether it's just a simple exchange of messages for the day or actual meetings, what was once a bleak hope has now come to fruition.
While he had felt her absence in some varying degrees in the days, weeks, months, years to that night, ever since then he feels it all the more. He's not "clingy," he fully believes in partners having their own space when needed, and perhaps his own age may play a part in that ability to be fine with some distance and separation. However, that doesn't mean he doesn't feel that longing, a yearning to be with her, too. And when they are together, well, it's just completely over. Miracle they manage to separate at all.
So. Yes. It's odd to admit something like this, but before he didn't think she cared so much about his little random messages. Now that he knows she does, it shifts his perspective around, and makes him more motivated and inclined to reach out to her. As he said, things are different now. Not only does he have more people he can dole out those "burdens" to, but especially between them. He's certain now that when things get too frustrating or tiring he's going to want to seek her out for that respite and solace and have faith she will be there to give it (with the usual scolding and initial resistance, but even that would be welcome).
Hopefully this little admittance may also give her some reassurance that he is thinking of her more and being more mindful and considerate of her—and others.]