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Subject: The Rifts
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What is even the point of becoming close to anyone here, if they can all just leave as quickly as they came?

Oh, sure, let's all play our little games and finish our silly little quests and feel this sense of camaraderie working towards a goal we all damn well know is unaccomplishable. And along the way, we can learn the magic of friendship only to have it taken away by the Rifts without any further explanation.

It would be nicer to believe we were being held to the whims of some vengeful god instead of the unfeeling randomness of the Rifts and their "unknowable" magic.

Then, at least, there would be someone to curse for the cruelty of it.

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A little more surprise and questions, perhaps, but then again you've lived long enough. Talking to the dead must not be so surprising where you're from if they walk.

Though you also sound as if you had experience.

My home has all manner of undead. Sometimes people just don't die like they're suppose to.

And, see, that's really the irony of all of this insistence. One can't really be asked to "live" if they aren't living in the first place.

I suppose the akashic of my world would be the closest thing of being undead, though not sure if it's worse.

And if you mean "breathing with a beating heart" then you're right. But being "alive" is much more than that.

What is that? "Akashic"?

[ He's seen that word before. From a angry woman scorned by a man who did not love her back, a man who betrayed her. A word special to her world--and his world, and Astarion does not think this is really a coincidence. ]

I suppose so.

It's what happens when a living being is completely consumed by aether, the energy or source of our magic. Once you turn, you lose all your sense of will, mind, and consciousnesses, moving only by instinct to kill or destroy whatever is in your way. There's debate on whether the person is really alive anymore, but personally I'd hope they're dead. No way to live, that. And there's no turning back.

Edited 2023-10-05 05:15 (UTC)

That does not sound particularly pleasant, no. It seems like the only thing for it would be to hope for a mercy killing.

You'd be right. I know that's what I'd want should that ever happen to me.

But enough about that. Less somber topic — how to to be alive while not being one.

That will not change so easily.

Well not with that attitude.

But what it means to "live" differs from person to person to begin with. And it all comes back to those wonderful things called "emotions" that you're having some trouble with.

Yes, well, I'd much rather not have any of those.

Afraid you don't have much choice in the matter.

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