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[subigito]

Type: Text
Sender ID: anonymous (Astarion)
To: General Public
Subject: The Rifts
Warnings: None

What is even the point of becoming close to anyone here, if they can all just leave as quickly as they came?

Oh, sure, let's all play our little games and finish our silly little quests and feel this sense of camaraderie working towards a goal we all damn well know is unaccomplishable. And along the way, we can learn the magic of friendship only to have it taken away by the Rifts without any further explanation.

It would be nicer to believe we were being held to the whims of some vengeful god instead of the unfeeling randomness of the Rifts and their "unknowable" magic.

Then, at least, there would be someone to curse for the cruelty of it.

Comments

id: gruffier

[gruffier]

I don't want to agree that loss is apart of life and something we should come to expect, but we still hardly know the first thing about these lands.

We can't afford this mindset if we are going to survive here.

[subigito]

I wasn't asking you to adopt any mindset. There's no "we" about this.

[gruffier]

How do you intend to survive here, then? To just wait until the Rift takes you home?

[subigito]

I'm handling things just fine.

[ It's just a moment of weakness, but some part of him knows Clive is right--he can't just go crying every time something bad happens. ]

[gruffier]

Your message clearly proves that.

[ He doesn't mean to be harsh, which is while he'll take a step back to allow Astarion to process before continuing ]

I am not faulting you for grieving. But distancing yourself from others when we are all in a similar situation will only end up harming yourself.

[subigito]

Then what am I supposed to do? Keep setting myself up to feel like this again?

[gruffier]

No. You continue to live and fight for their sake. We don't know when we are going to leave or how long this star seeks to keep us here, but I'll be damned if let that fear stop me.

[subigito]

I have no intention of shirking my responsibilities. But continuing to fight and growing close to people are two very different things.

[gruffier]

And to those who would consider you a friend? Would you try to turn them away?

Fighting alongside someone creates those bonds. I hardly see the line between them.

[subigito]

Honestly, in the past, I would have just used their naiveté in trusting me against them for my own gain.

But people are so nice here! I don't understand it at all. What worlds are all of you people from?

[gruffier]

It sort of rubs off on you, I suppose.

[ In the past, though? Does that mean he's made some changes, too?

It took him a long time to even accept that himself, but now he's just a big soft puppy- ]

That's certainly a lot to disclose when I don't even know the person I am writing to.

[ Yeah. Mr. Anon. ]

[subigito]

Oh.

That was a rhetorical question. I don't actually expect you to tell me anything.

[ he doesn't expect much from anyone, really, hence the general mess of all of this. ]

[gruffier]

[ Yeah Clive is bad at catching onto those things, especially in text. he's still trying to get use to these shellphones, really- but he won't admit it!! ]

Fair enough. Keeping your distance and all that.

Yet your heart seems to be in the right place. It would be a shame for others not to be able to see it.

[subigito]

We've had one tiny conversation over text, how could you possibly know whether my heart is in the right place? I literally just admitted I usually manipulate my way out of problems!

[gruffier]

"In the past", was it? Though you're right. I'm not the one to judge your character.

[subigito]

Well, at least you're quick to agree on that much.

[ I'm so sorry he's like this ]

[gruffier]

[ He's dealt with bigger hardasses. ]

I would have agreed sooner had not seen one post publicly about their grievances towards others. Clearly the work of someone heartless.

[subigito]

It's just a waste of people's time.

[ how did he end up arguing against himself like this ]