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shellphones2025-09-23 08:40 am
scooba) wrote in shellphones2025-09-23 08:40 am
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Um...
I suppose I should post this here. People having been saying I should be more confident in myself so...
I guess I wanted to let you know my birthday is coming up soon. So, I'm not too sure how to celebrate it here.
I suppose I should post this here. People having been saying I should be more confident in myself so...
I guess I wanted to let you know my birthday is coming up soon. So, I'm not too sure how to celebrate it here.
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[Erichthonios can piece together the sort of event the name refers to. A birth day, a commemoration of the day of one's birth. Between the innate longevity of his people and the lack of proper day and night cycles where he grew up, 'tis not a very familiar concept to him.]
I know not how one would celebrate it, but I... think I would spend such a day among those who made me happy to be born. Have you people you care about here?
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[He said with a pause or two]
I know I can do a few things with them so I guess I want to know is there any suggestions.
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...People seemed to enjoy their time playing by the water this past month. Mayhap a day at the beach? If you are not tired of it, that is...
...Or, if you are fond of animals, I hear there is an excellent Conservatory here.
I do not think the skate park is ready yet. But several children seemed very interested in constructing one... although it is for the wheeled skate boards rather than living skates.
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[…………]
Not that they don’t care, we just have so many different things going on.
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Have no idea what a loving, functional family acts like, please help.He pauses, takes a deep breath, and plunges into his response in a way that he hopes is affirming and supportive.]I-I think, if they love you, and you love them, 'twould be possible to do at least one of those things, or anything you like! And mayhap if there is not enough time to do all things you'd like, you could do another on another day.
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[But at the same time?]
I just don't want to bother them too much.
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[All the time. It is difficult all the time.]
But... if you don't ask, or offer to share that day with them... they can never say yes.
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[But he doesn’t want to!!]
…Although knowing them, they might have something for me.
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[He doesn't know who the family is yet, else he might be inclined to agree.]
Regardless of the outcome, I wish you well. On your birth day, and all the other days to come.
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[...]
It's been about 2 years since I arrived here and it feels like I haven't changed much.
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[He knows not the boy's age, not having seen the other exchanges, but he seems... a little ways into adolescence?]
Give yourself time to grow. I am sure you will do so when your time is right.
It took me a very long time to gain confidence in myself. And even now, I struggle sometimes.
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[He really hasn't changed too much since he first arrived here, has he?]
May I ask how did you gain your confidence? I think I'm still struggling with mine after all these years here.
Touching on spoilers for the raid plot here
[He pauses, hand raising to his lips in thought for a few seconds ere he lifts his head, recounting a summary of the events aloud.]
I would have to say... 'twas quite recently. My colleagues were in grave danger, and I wished to save them no matter the risk to myself.
'Twas... not a plan well-received by the one with the most authority over the facility. But, there were two who came to investigate what was happening there, and by our efforts, we managed to save many who would have otherwise been summarily condemned.
I realized something from all that happened. That I have a voice, and that voice is worth listening to.
And so do you.
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[He really didn't know how to respond to that. He really did have a voice here but the problem was learning how to use it.]
...I know when I got my Vision, I was willing to risk my life trying to save my family members but I don't know if that was me having a voice or not. I just didn't want to see them die.
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You made a choice to save them, did you not? 'Twas not a choice made for you... so yes, I think it counts.
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[He supposed so considering he did get a vision as a result.]
...I wouldn't have thought it like that. I just thought it was me trying to save people.
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Growing up without confidence... it isn't always easy to talk to people or express our wishes aloud, but as long as you hearken to your heart and listen to your inner voice, I think you are on the right course.
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It's kind of funny. You speak just like the same way that "Father" would. She would say the same thing. Words don't always hold power. Our actions do.
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I think I understand.
Words are words. Actions are truth.
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I know I'm not good with words. I usually do things by action because I'm not good around people. I just hope that it's enough.
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You'll find a way. You already have the will to reach out, so the rest shall come in time.
You needn't rush.
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Have you been dissatisfied with yourself for some time? Or... is there some particular reason that has spurred to you pursue change after your time here?
[Is the motivation internally or externally driven?]
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I've been dissatisfied with myself for quite a long time now. But I know that there isn't much I can to become the person I want to be. Especially when I'm so...quiet.
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[He speaks the question without judgement, head tilted in open curiosity.]
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