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[empyrean_mirror]

Type: Video
Sender ID: paradisaea (Kaveh)
To: so, so public
Subject: important question!!!
Warnings: Alcoholism and the chaos gays probably in the comments somewhere.

[Kaveh is laying at on a couch in his home, sprawled bonelessly across it, and he's clearly flushed. Given he's staring despondently up at the ceiling and not directly at the camera, this is not because he's having a good time.]

Hey...how are you s'posed to convince people y'care about them? [Kaveh laughs a bit, bitterly.] I'm clearly doing it wrong.

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[book2thehead]

It's not a matter of whether or not I think I deserve it...

[Well, it is a little, but that's a deeper rooted issue that Heizou is not examining right now.]

Most people don't just wanna come be my friend, Kaveh. They only want something that I can provide. I'm tolerated because I'm good at what I do. I have no illusions about that. So to have someone ask nothing of me is... disorienting.

[empyrean_mirror]

Is that still true? Or is it true because you don't allow anyone to try?

[kaveh is too drunk to not choose violence.]

[book2thehead]

It's proven otherwise so rarely that yes, I do think it's still true. And if I'm causing trouble or distress just by existing, then doesn't it make sense for me to step away?

[empyrean_mirror]

Hah. You don't, though. And if that were the case Cyno would live a much more isolated life, but he's the most warm-hearted person I know...

[...He can't believe he's trying to think of a pun. Cyno, he misses you so much. :(]

I think once you've decided it's true someone's uncomfortable with you, you don't ever let them prove otherwise.

[book2thehead]

[He doesn't know a Cyno. So that comparison kind of just goes right past him.]

If I have the evidence I need to interpret that way, then what point is there in dragging things out unnecessarily?

[Heizou huffs out a little sigh and wipes a hand down his face.]

At any rate, the problem is obviously not with you. You shouldn't feel bad about it.

[empyrean_mirror]

What evidence?

[book2thehead]

I'm speaking more generally, Master Architect.

[empyrean_mirror]

Does dodging questions usually help your case, Detective?

[book2thehead]

That would depend on what questions need dodging.